Thursday, September 15, 2011

Day 11...Turning Points

Weigh in:  Not sure cause I have been travelling

Today is Day 11 and I'm feeling pretty good!  Work got a bit hectic but I was able to stay focused keeping my eating habits in check.  I think that documenting what I've eaten helped keep me together for the first week.  The second week, it was just not necessary.  Here's an example of what I ate today:

Breakfast:  Coffee, Cream, Splenda.  No time for solids
Lunch:  Romaine Lettuce, Caesar Dressing, 4 meatballs in pasta sauce
Dinner:  Low Carb Pasta, pasta sauce, Cottage cheese, whipped cream and blueberries.

I think the total carbs for the day would be about 30.  What's funny is I'm not hungry in the least but I'm finding that my energy levels are going up.  Stress from work is more than ever, but I haven't had a headache all week!  I don't feel nearly as bloated, too.  I have this vision in my mind of what I want to look like.  I want to be slim.  I don't want to have this thick spare tire around my waist.  I'm going to stay focused because I want to be able to buy those clothes that I see in the mall. 

I want to look my best for my wife.  She deserves to have a healthy and attractive husband.  She is so beautiful and I don't want to take that for granted.  It's important to me.  I think about how I need to do this for my kids too.  I don't want to end up with diabetes (Di-Bee-Teez....that's for you, Liza) or a heart attack because I couldn't control my eating habits.  It's also important to me too.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Day 4...Deflation

Weigh-in: 193

Today was good.  I woke feeling not so bloated.  I weighed in this morning down 5 pounds.  I'm sure this is mostly water weight or something like that but I'm not concerned about that so much.  I'm thinking about how I'm starting to feel a bit better.  Today was also interesting because it was high stress.  Typically, those are days that your will runs down.  Not too much trouble.  I went looking for the crap like a dog nosing through the trash, but I stayed on track.

I sat in the car waiting for Bailey during her horseback lesson.  I look down and see the fat ring around my waist......kept me in check while the kids ate pizza for dinner.  I had some meatballs and some of the cheese off the pizza.  Strange because I'm full tonight for the first time over the past 4 days.  Geeeeessssh.  It's only been 4 days and it feels like a month already.

I think this journal is helping me stay on track.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day 3...The Break-Up

Weigh-in:  196
I decided that I'm breaking up with my food.  She is just too demanding.  I feel like we are just growing apart and not wanting the same thing.  She is always nagging me and frankly, I just want to consume her!  I'm obsessed with her!'s not healthy.

I unintentionally didn't have breakfast this morning...just a coffee.  Lunch was late due to business meetings.  I was STARVING so I ate a Cook-Out burger (high five cause it was awesome) but I threw away the bun.  I realized that I haven't discussed the issues I have with eating.  I don't have a problem with sweets.  I could step on any bar of chocolate or piece of candy.  Except ice cream cause that should be a food group. 

Hello, my name is Matthew......I'm a carboholic.

Anyway, my problem is the pasta, rice, and f'in bread.  I love me some bread...corn bread, sweet bread, french bread (that just leads to french toast), ciabatta bread.....I can do this all day.  I have found some pasta that is low carb and that works great.  However, in the beginning, I need to really limit my bad carbohydrate intake.

Essenttially, I eat any meat, cheese, vegetable, and some berries.  Tonight was the exception cause my baby fried up that flounder.....mmmmm mmmmmm mmmm (in my best southern drawl) it is soooooo good.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Day 2...Why am I hungry!

Weigh-in: 196
Geeeshhh.  It's day two and I'm going to bed hungry.  What the hell?  I think it's because all I ate was eggs mostly today.  Maybe I need to add more to the eggs....avocado, bacon, cheese?  I went to Lowes Home Improvement to buy a fastener to hang something for my wife and the whole way there all I can think of is, "what kind of food can I find?".  Instead of tubing my agenda for greatness, I went into Walmart and got some pre-cooked bacon, lettuce, tomato so I could make some salad.  It worked out ok.....but I'M STARVIN!

I need to find better food to fill up on.  I would love to have some macadamia nuts, walnuts, pecans but with my adult braces, I can't eat them.  My wife's friend, Katherine, hates it when I show her my adult braces after I eat.....makes her want to vomit.  Then she can't stand that I say the word vomit.  Then I die laughing.

I'm still motivated to make this work though.  I'm disgusted by my belly :(

Day begins

Weigh-in:  198
I'm starting this journal so that I can watch the transformation of my mind, spirit, and body.  I've come to the conclusion that I am out of balance.  I have a solid handle on work, but my personal and spiritual life are not in line.   I eat whatever the hell I want.  I don't feel like I get much done around the house.  I seem to know more about what is on TV and what the channels are (SIDE BAR: make a mental note...that is always a sure sign that you are wasting time.  There is NOTHING valuable on the TV that is worth watching.  The exceptions are major events that are live.  You wouldn't know about those anyway!)

So here is how it started.  I sat on the couch looking up Delta flights for work and suddenly the computer dies and I see the image of myself in the computer screen.  I see what looks to me like an enormous spare tire around my waste.  I think.....damn that is just embarrassing.  I take hold of the blubber with both hands and give it a shake.  I feel like Tim Allen from "The Santa Claus" wondering if this is a weight problem.  I'm 37 and I have no reason why I shouldn't be in the best of health.  Kids need to be bathed, previous engagement, too tired, my wife doesn't motivate me (this isn't the case for wife took offense!), there isn't any food that I can eat.  ALL PATHETIC EXCUSES.  The answers are glaring in front of me.  Get up earlier, stop watching TV, get on the elliptical machine, go to the grocery store and buy your own damn food!

I'm a metric person.  It's a fact that anything you track you will improve on.  Take your measurements, weigh yourself, write down what you eat.  Not only will you provide yourself with a perspective on what you REALLY are like but you might surprise yourself on how it motivates you to try even harder.

I found this cheap ($.79) little composition book.  I use it to log the food that I eat.  I put in EVERYTHING including a crappy little cheese block.  You'd be surprised how much food you consume.  The crappy part is I'm actually going to bed hungry!  I need to get some fattier food.  All the "fat free" clacker shoe chicks freak out when I say this.  Fat is NOT the enemy.  Well non-saturated fat at least.  Good fat is actually the good energy your body needs and is more complex to break down so it requires more energy....burns more calories!  Anyway, the book works because by tracking the food I eat, I actually hold myself accountable.  I don't want to have to write that I ate the Twinkies I was ogling.  Or perhaps the harmless spoonful of Rum Raisin Haagan-Dazs.  I actually bought that a couple of days ago and now I'm PISSED.  I know it's in the freezer.  I know I want it (my mouth is watering now).  But I REFUSE to have to write it in the book.

This better be worth it....